I guess I posted about my amazing weekend and the bottom fell out… this week has been pretty awful. It started with hearing some really not so nice things, actually incredulous things being said from SEVERAL people who I highly trust, coming from people who were involved in my fundraiser…. which…. REALLY upsets me. I’ve taken the high road and have opted not to say anything…. I really don’t understand why these things would be said about me? I know exactly where they are coming from, because there was one particular topic that ONLY one person knew about. Weren’t these people supposed to be helping me???? Why try to hurt me now?? I have cancer… really??? Why not just walk away….. why? I guess this means I’ve played my cancer card again…. Seriously, please stop… allow me to fight this disease in PEACE. I pray no one believes it…. and remember, there are ALWAYS two sides. I just haven’t vocalized mine….
I’m fighting for my life right now…. this isn’t the flu. It’s cancer…. I’m stage 3, according to my oncologist. 1 stage away from being incurable. Let’s not make this deadly by causing me more stress…. please. All of this is taking a toll on my health and my family life…. I’d really love to be here for my family, friends…. and children.
It's Me Sunshine... 
You pretty lady do not need to worry yourself with people like this….especially now. I have experienced this recently as well during a tough time for our family. And some fabulous person said to me to just keep on living your life in such a manner that when those that actually know you (you know…the ones that MATTER) hear something like this they will shake their heard and say ‘there is no way that is possible.’ Please keep your head up and focus on matters right now..your health and your family. And this is important-let people know how to help. People do not know how to handle cancer–and often do not know what to do/say. (even if it is just checking in on you…taking out the trash or watching your kiddos for an hour.) If someone asks what they can do…tell them. That said–what can I do? Second shoot? edit? send dinner?? Let us know. Now go kick some cancer ass and stop worrying about the awful people. They matter not.
You pretty lady do not need to worry yourself with people like this…especially now. I have experienced this recently as well during a tough time for our family. And some fabulous person said to me to just keep on living your life in such a manner that when those that actually know you (you know…the ones that MATTER) hear something like this they will shake their head and say ‘there is no way that is possible.’ Please keep your head up and focus on matters right now..your health and your family. And this is important-let people know how to help. People do not know how to handle cancer–and often do not know what to do/say. (even if it is just checking in on you…taking out the trash or watching your kiddos for an hour.) If someone asks what they can do…tell them. That said–what can I do? Second shoot? edit? send dinner?? Let us know. Now go kick some cancer ass and stop worrying about the awful people. They matter not.
Why, oh why does it seem like when things are bad, more and more and MORE bad just seems to keep piling on??? This may seem crazy because we’ve never met in person, but I’ve cried for you and felt sisterly love and compassion for you. I’ve seen you rise to the top when tribulations come your way time and time again. That’s because YOU are the CREAM, BABY! Keep smiling. Stay optimistic. Ignore anything that isn’t positive. Shove all the crap out of your life that doesn’t feel like it’s helping you fight. DO IT!!!! If people think, do, or say anything negative, drop them…after all…once you’re cured THEN you can bat your big eyelashes, play your cancer card and be like “Oh I’m sorry, the cancer made me do it!” 😉