Post Surgery – Day 5

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Monday morning we arrived at the hospital just before 5… they prepped me for surgery, we said our prayers… and they gave me the happy juice as they wheeled me back. They’d had me scheduled to be completed by 3:25pm… Around 10pm I started to come to… They had me in a “warm room” and around 4am, I was finally wheeled into my room. I called my Mom and Darrell and received the details of the day…

They keep you updated via faces and the faces would turn colors and go back to the previous color… they were very worried for me…the only updates… “shes still in surgery”. And, finally around 8pm my doctor came out to tell them that all was fine… and that they might as well go home, I would be in a warm isolation room for a period of time. It was an incredibly long day for them…. very emotionally taxing.

3 doctors worked continuously on me… for 12+ hours. I look mutilated, honestly… it’s hard to believe that my breasts will ever look normal. The flaps are completely different, BUT… the blood flow is incredible and they are most definitely much bigger than my implants… My doctor will definitely have to make tweaks in the next phase of surgery which will not be for at least 6 months. Most of the work was making sure the blood vessels were healthy. What a difference it is between the implants…. and these flaps. My implants were always cold, because I had no breast tissue. These are most definitely warm and ample. Until the next phase I will have some lumps and bumps that will not look normal… this is definitely a phased surgery and the next phase will be much less invasive and it will be a day surgery with a week or so recovery.

Much of the work done, was on my rear end…. it’s hard to say how I will end up, but I literally have NO butt left. Even at my thinnest, I had plenty going on back there. From what I can tell… all of that looks amazing and will definitely be an improvement and different from anything I’ve ever had.

They did take the “cyst” and the tissue and I should have pathology on that this upcoming week. Since I was diagnosed and have eaten healthy I’ve had no issues body odor… until recently and only on the right side… I just found it this past Thursday evening during a routine breast exam. Ironically, since removed I’ve had ZERO issues with body odor. Even though sweating in bed for days… without showering!

I’ve been extremely sore and extremely tired from the pain medication. I was on a morphine pain pump and I hated how I felt on it so Wednesday they changed me to Dilaudid and Tramadol. A much better combination for me… It tires me out, but I can function… I’m doing well with getting up… although sore… I’m managing ok.

I’m staying at my Moms. I was released yesterday. Since I work at Ashley I got a sweet deal on an adjustable base for the room at her house, it’s a god send. My boss helped hook me up… and I’m so appreciative. My Mom is taking amazing care of me!  I love being here… it’s very relaxing.

I decided to stay here because we sold our house and Darrell has so much going on with packing and getting everything ready for the move… this has been a great decision, he can focus… come visit and I can rest.

So… long recovery ahead. I will update regarding the “cyst”…

Thanks so much for the love! Thanks so much for the visits and texts… I’m very appreciative for you all!

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Nervous… Surgery 10/5

I had my final consult yestserday with my plastic surgeon. This surgery is going to be very extensive… He will have 3 doctors performing the surgery, himself (Dr. Clavin), Dr. Robinson and Dr. LaFave…. I will be on a table that turns like a rotisserie. They will start with my backside… and they will harvest the flaps… One doctor will be working exclusively on the blood vessels… Timing is everything. He said that the flaps cannot stay off my body for more than 6 hours…

Then they will flip my body and work on the front side… and create breasts with the flaps. On the left side with radiated skin, he will remove as much of the radiated skin and the gaping wound… and replace it with my flaps… I joked with him and told him he should be able to give me DD’s, I have plenty back there to work with! And I should wake up looking like Barbie 🙂 Joking, of course… he told me I will be happy with large B’s.. this is purely about getting me back to something that is normal… For the past 3-4 weeks I’ve been eating sugar and trying to bulk up a bit for this operation… and then it will be back to my routine… vegetarian and no sugar…

The 3 doctors will work about 8-10 hours to make this come together. I will be in the hospital for 5 days at least… and possibly surgical ICU the first couple of days…

So, it’s Breast Cancer Awareness Month… and… I did my breast exam… and under my right armpit… I found a sizable lump. I didn’t know what to do… wait until Monday and tell them at the time of surgery?  Call my doctor? I decided to  message my surgical oncologist (who is out on maternity leave)… and she arranged for me to have an ultrasound… I truly have a phenomenal team of doctors…

I had the ultrasound… and the doctor says… everything looks fine, all I see is a cyst…

What????? If anyone knows about my situation… I had “cysts” 7 months before I was diagnosed… with Stage 3 cancer… “just cysts” they said…. In my right side, I had  a “cyst” that they said would aspirate… as I watched the biopsy needle go in and slide right out… the doctor who assured me it would aspirate said… hmm, that’s odd…. wel it had “atypia” which is pre-cancer…

I’ve preached…. stick a needle in it!!! Well, I will have my plastic surgeon remove it… while he’s in there… and if it doesn’t aspirate… I will make sure he sends it for biopsy. I’ve already sent the email… I will not mess around…

I’ve been completely frazzled these days… so much going on.. issues with my kids, issues with G in school, issues with work, it seemed every time I turned around.. issues…

I’ve been praying my fool head off, so I know where this is coming from! I know I’m being tested… so, I may  not have passed my tests… I probably failed on many accounts…. but, literally I’ve had too much on my plate. We’re selling our house, looking for a place to live… going in for a major surgery…. too much going on! I pray, pray, pray…. and it helps so much… I’ve had equal blessings… wonderful things have happened as well… We have an offer on our house… Blessing! We didn’t have any major issues on inspection… Blessing! The only sunny day was on the day of inspection… Blessing!

But, I’m a worry wart… I worry about worrying… and I hate worrying about my health. I truly despise it… I hate having to have every little thing checked out…. No matter what happens… there is a purpose for everything and a lesson in everything! I’ve discussed the risks of the surgery with my doctor… I’m sure I’ll come out just fine… but, it will be a LONGGG recovery.

I remind myself always…

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I won’t blog again until after surgery…

My little man is 6 years old tomorrow… I’ve been reminiscing all day about everything. It will feel so odd to be at the hospital… and not there to snuggle my lil’ man…

Please say some prayers for me… and our family!